The Abused

My Little Savage Girl.

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 01:09:24 -0400

My Little Savage Girl.

How do you change the fucking profile pic for this?

Mon, 06 Aug 2012 20:11:11 -0400

How do you change the fucking profile pic for this?

I remember heart ache now. What it feels like to have nothing left inside of you.. There is a hole...

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 01:42:23 -0400

I remember heart ache now. What it feels like to have nothing left inside of you.. There is a hole in my chest where my heart once stood. Now I feel nothing but the empty coldness of that hole. It sinks deeper and deeper, like a knife driven to kill. I bared my heart too open for the world and now it has been ripped from me. I’m left here to shake in the frustration of me not being able to conjure tears. Now I sit here and wonder…what’s the difference between my chest and the greatest abyss?

People are gay, get over it. People have bright coloured hair, get over it. People don’t believe in religion, get over it. People have stretched ears and tattoos, get over it. People will look and dress differently from you, get over it.

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 04:14:46 -0400

sherlockedpotterhead:

Hoorah.

Does this world’s darkness have no end? It always comes to mind that you have forgotten me. My...

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 04:12:53 -0400

Does this world’s darkness have no end? It always comes to mind that you have forgotten me. My heart aches knowing I HAD the place HE HAS. It turns my blood cold and all I hear is Death’s whispers in my ear. (J.R.)

And for you, my other J.R., you hold a place in my heart, but you feel I neglect you. I admitted something I’ve prolonged to say many of many moons yet you lie there alone tonight. (J.R.)

Ah, you, there is no one like you out there but do not be blinded by friendship. Feelings between us we’re never really dormant. Even you know this to be true. (I.A.)

And you my Rhiannon.. This is hard but you love not a man but a demon who’s heart is colder than ice, and who’s intentions are that equal of man. You love me and I love you, but what do you really see?

One last poem.

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 21:57:27 -0400

Yeah my momma picks on me, but that’s just the way of life;
Every time we argue, always ends with me and a knife.
Thoughts of ending this shit, always run through my mind;
I hear the devil calling, and he’s yelling “your mine”.
- G.C

It was enough.

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 02:45:51 -0400

I cried for the first time in many many moons tonight… Only two tears were shed…but they were enough to make me remember the taste of mortality.

Its good to see people move on right? Wrong. It hurts and cuts deeper than any blade a mortal body...

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 01:17:06 -0400

Its good to see people move on right? Wrong. It hurts and cuts deeper than any blade a mortal body has ever received in the history of man. But in this pain blooms a sad poetic man, who speaks of nothing but the truth and the whole of that truth. Believe me mortal when I say, pain and agony is the birth place of something beautiful. Let your pain guide you in the way of the Voice. And with this said, I bid you a sweet, dark night.

Everytime.

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 23:33:53 -0400

It never ceases to fail that EVERYTIME I get in a car with my mother, I get a look on her face that always shows her curiosity and irritation. I was late 15 min to go outside so she could pick me up and I can hear the gears clanking inside her feeble stressed mind. And I’m left here to wonder, Why are you taking this beyond the horizon? I just don’t understand, but then again, even the man who knows everything KNOWS he knows nothing.

Yeah, I smoke when I’m mad. Yeah, I’m mad. Why? Because when I DON’T smoke my...

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 23:51:46 -0400

Yeah, I smoke when I’m mad.
Yeah, I’m mad.
Why? Because when I DON’T smoke my medicine, I’m not me. I’m not happy. I’m ALWAYS irritated.

May I say something to those of you who bother to read these? Does it mean I’m not human...

Thu, 31 May 2012 21:16:29 -0400

May I say something to those of you who bother to read these? Does it mean I’m not human because I smoke weed? Cause if so tell me, but don’t lie about it. You look at me like I’m a down graded, mentally slow druggie. All I ask is you treat me human. (Even though I won’t ever be after this.)

Amen.

Mon, 28 May 2012 23:18:54 -0400

Amen.

I remember when we laid in the moon light; out of breathe and done We laid there smiling at each...

Mon, 28 May 2012 14:44:52 -0400

I remember when we laid in the moon light; out of breathe and done
We laid there smiling at each other thinking nothing could get any better… But now it’s just a memory that will be lost to history.
The one and only time we will ever do it again.

Thwarted.

Wed, 23 May 2012 02:09:39 -0400

So this is my normal home day.
Me: *walks out to go for a shower*
Mom: you need to cut that shit out
Me: cut what out?
Mom: smoking.
Me: smoking what? Tobacco?
Mom: no, weed. Your eyes have been red since I got home (she was home BEFORE me.)
Me: oh really? Cause all I had today was a few cigarettes.
Mom: “a few”? Like over 3
Me: no, about 3
Mom: you smoked weed and 3 cigarettes today?
Me: yeah, that’s normal. What, you gonna put 8 holes in chest? (back story to that is my mom told me that a grandma shot her grandson 8 times in the chest for doing drugs)
Mom: no, BUT I’LL GIVE YOU ONE! *punch*….
yay. Today was great.

Lakers are loosing. Nough Said. XD

Mon, 21 May 2012 23:47:38 -0400

Lakers are loosing.
Nough Said. XD

To damn close to my nights.

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:35:33 -0400

To damn close to my nights.

Hoorah.

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:34:56 -0400

Hoorah.

They say you waste time when you sleep, but I’m just tryna...

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:33:50 -0400

They say you waste time when you sleep, but I’m just tryna dream: Mac Miller

Tonight.

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:31:42 -0400

Tonight was the first night since I was 6 that I prayed to the Lord.
I prayed that he would He would give me the strength to do what was right.. I can’t say feel like an answer has been given, but now I know, He knows.

Fuck.

Sun, 06 May 2012 23:59:37 -0400

Fuck.